Am I not a Mother?

Am I not a Mother on this Mother's Day?
I had a baby, but he's gone
Death took him away.

Hope and dreams have vanished
a happy time turned cold.
My motherhood where is it now?
Gone?  or put on hold?

Am I not a mother even that my child died?
Does anybody know my heartbreak
Am I not a Mother?
or the anguish I feel inside?

Special gifts and flowers
But who will remember me?
As I stand and shed some tears
At your graveside where I will be.

Mother's Day is so painful
but I will make it through.
Yes I am a Mother!
But God takes care of you.





On This Mother's Day

On This Mother's Day I asked myself.
Do I have the right to celebrate Mother's Day?
Have a truly been a mother this past year?
The answer is yes!

Each day I have cared for my child
as every mother does, 
except differently.
In every way possible I have mother him.

I have mother him with every tear shed.
Through the agony of longing to hold him.
I have rocked him in my heart, if not in my arms.
I have kissed his lilttle chicks in my mind
if not with my lips.

I have smelled his sweetness
with my hopes if not with my nose.
Felt his skin with my memory,
if not my hands.
Tickled him with my wishes,
if not with my fingers.

Am I a mother? I trully am.
My physicall mothering
has been limited to lovely
tending his grave.
But I am a mother all the same.

A Mother's Day Ode
I am your mother, but my child I cannot hold.
It'll get easier with time, or so I'm told.
People may forget that I am your mother.
I'm part of a secret club we only share with one another.
But that doesn't diminsh my love for you.
I think of you the whole day through.
I wonder what you're doing, my Precious Little One.
We are connected by an Infinite bond which cannot come undone.
I will not let Death tear us apart.
I promise to always keep you alive in my heart. 

Susan Mosquera

 Mother's Day

No little hugs or kisses
to wake me up on this morn.
No special card or roses sent my way.
Bittersweet feelings, at least a thousand tears;
Quietly, I celebrated you this day.

I am not like the others,
Though I still wear the name.
I cannot hold you in my arms,
But I love you just the same.

I knelt beside your resting place,
Though I knew you were not there.
I prayed to God in Heaven:
A peace I found in knowing,
sweet child, you're in His care.

To see a mother with his baby-
How my heart breaks in two;
But never would I trade this pain
If it meant there had no been you.

At times I feel I cannot go on-
Living this life without you.
Yet hidden behind my deepest grief
There is joy unexpainably true.

For my son, you will always be a blessing from above.
Your brief existence has bestowed on me a name I cherish dear.
And although this day is not what I imagined it to be,
I will treasure it because of you-
On this MOTHER'S DAY.

                                Written by Jana S.


I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother and I know I heard him say.

A Mother has a baby this we know is true. But, God, can you be a Mother when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can He replied, with confidence in His voice. I give many women babies when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime, and others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay.

I just don't understand this, God I want my baby here He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear.

I wish that I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say

"We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My Mommy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom, who had so much love for me. I learned my lesson very quickly. My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much but I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep on her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear. "Mommy, don't be sad today I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one your children are okay Your babies are here in My home and this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on the day that you come home they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother it's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of right from the very start.